This morning, I went into a coffee shop in Toronto. Sleepy after a day and night full of dancing, I ordered a cup of tea, yes, tea, I don’t really drink coffee, and I sat down. Wooh, needed to ground some of the energy from yesterday and clear space for new things!
As I sat there I almost felt like crying.
Yesterday was a BIG day of dancing and activity with a couple of uncomfortable experiences that previously could have rocked me and colored my experience. But, I felt good about the day and happy that I learned a lot and also felt challenged by these two new dances I am learning. I was not able to dance them like a pro and that is ok. It is a part of the learning process.
So when I sat down this morning and felt this sadness, I inquired within: “Whose energy is this?”
I heard a response, a name in my body, in the center of my chest. “OH, it’s…’s energy. Got it.” Then I felt pretty released from it almost instantly. It’s like taking off a huge cloak and giving back to it’s owner. It is a gentle acknowledging, presencing and letting go.
Ahhh, sweet relief. Taking on other people’s energy and wanting to “help” others or “fix” or change their experiences has been a lifelong path for me.
I used to think there was something wrong if someone was being challenged by an experience or something I may have seen as unfortunate or down right awful happened to someone.
Yesterday, as I felt triggered on and off throughout the day, I kept coming back to a thought a friend verbalized to me about a month ago: “Nothing is wrong here.” That seemed to give me a freedom in being in the moment and open to the possibilities!
I still noticed myself looking into other people’s experiences and wanting to KNOW what was wrong with them or bothering them when I felt they were not happy or something was “wrong”. Now I am here saying to myself, “Focus more of my energy on my experience. I am a conduit, a receptor for energy and I get impulses all the time, it doesn’t mean I have to act on them!”
How do YOU free yourself up from taking on other people’s stuff?
What is holding YOU back from being in a place of possibilities this morning?
How can focusing on your own experience inform you of what is right for you next?
” Sun is Shining”